it's gonna be just fine

Finally it's reaching.
The long awaited moment now becomes a pot of mixed feelings.
What i shld be doing now, is to tell you every single thing i needed to say.

It feels like crap now.

Anything and anytime just for a...
Moment of faith, hope, strength..

Seems like a dream come true
Of what i really wanted to do and i
Really wish i could
Rest this head of mine on your shoulder.. and tell
You, "i hope this is just a script i wrote and it's gonna be an episode in my story."

Is "selflessness" an english word?

in every nook and cranny of my little brain i jot down with magical ink, invisible but embossed with surprisingly but true inspirational and motivational quotes to help myself see me in a better light.

They were engraved so artistically just like a tattoo. Human can only see it with their God-given eyes that it's colored in red and green... so much so that they were forgotten easily if they weren't enforced in the Human Nature as there were other shades of colors to remember.

Human nature is a very broad term, it cannot be simply defined as a term that meant a common trait shared by the human race. Complicated as it may seem, the brain is the most complex organ in the human body. The brain itself sends electric signal through the network of neurons to the central nervous system that will in turn, fire signals to the other parts of the body for it to take appropriate action.. ( if i'm not wrong) but since everyone receives signals from the same place, through the same network.....

it's unexplainable why people would look at things differently, with a different perception and act differently with a different motive on a similar basis. How did one brain tell a person to act differently from the others in a relax mode and tell a person to act unimaginably similar to another in terms of stress or trauma.

Yet with all the technology today, it is still very confusing and people will never fully understand the truth to how it really works. It's the relax mode that we should be afraid of. 'Cause it's not in the human nature that we tend to do the common things. It's only when it's beneficial to us, that we'll act the same way. and when it's beneficial to you solely, things will not turn out to be the expected, and will however, be skewed towards the person's own expectations.

that's how selfish one person can be.

stage 4

3 weeks pls fly pass like a breeze. remaining 3 weeks hold on and stop e time.

IMUVVVM. [:

haha i really wonder what shld i do, other than infesting my whole brains with you.
it's like a disease.

dunno where to start......

so much to say.

so little time.

so many people,

so little privacy.

so little time.

no hugs, no kisses.

no goodbyes.

no 'iloveyous'

no 'imissyous'

no goodnight.

one love,

one man,

one heart,

one time.

geez..

ilu, n imuvvvm, goodnite.

what else shld i do?

i wonder what i shld do next!?

shld i buy ticket?

or pack my bags?

shld i resign from work earlier?

or shld i find a house to stay in?

shld i buy usb port, multi card reader, speaker, itouch, ear piece, clothes, shoes, scarf?

or shld i save the money?

shld i go buy electrical appliances? vacuum, ricecooker, radio-cum-alarm clock, iron?

what shld i do? what are my priorities? what else shld i be thinking of other than ... you.